He's as damned as he seems, but more heaven than a heart could hold.... [05 Jan 2010|09:46pm] somberballad [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | "Let's See How Far We've Come"~Matchbox Twenty ] So this is my update...it will probably be a long one...assuming I don't run out of steam. 1. I got my  two of my grades back about forty or so minutes ago. Ten minutes before that Kevin texted me to tell me he got an A as his first grade back. I got two Bs so far. An hour ago I would have been happy with that, but I spent twenty or so minutes on the phone with my mom crying about it for no good reason. B's aren't the end of the world, but in law school, that's a C, B's are average, they set the curve. I have to keep reminding myself that I am average in a class full of very smart people and to expect more than that is almost vain. It also makes me nervous about my last grades, I have to get B's in those classes or risk going on academic probation/losing my scholarship. I have to keep telling myself I did the best I could do, and I really did, maybe I could have studied another hour or two but I don't think that would have helped my finals any more....it doesn't matter now. I just don't want to talk about it, and I know Kevin will and my STLA team and I have to get a grip on it, so I don't cry everytime i talk about it. B's are not bad....almost everyone got a B....I can keep telling myself lots of things, but I'm still disappointed and scared to get my last grades back. 2. So, I went home for break and didn't really write about it much, but it was wonderful guilt-free freetime and have a wonderful family to go home to during the break. They are so supportive of me and I am so thankful for that. I'll miss my mom the most, and I feel bad because i know she misses me, my sister doesn't hang out with her like I do. I don't know what else to say, except that I'm really thankful for them and it was harder than usual to come back to Denver. i just realized for the first time that i have two homes, Colorado Springs will always be one of them. 3. The Cameron Incident: Hope and I were shopping at Banana Republic and she found this cute red dress, but the only one they had in her size was on the mannequin, so she stopped one of the employees to ask if she could try it on. His name was Cameron and he was adorable and dorky. He was fumbling to take the dress off, asking us what he should do. Then while Hope was changing/deciding he kept walking by me and asking me questions, he didn't even tell Hope the dress looked good on her (which it did) just that he liked red. Then while we were checking out he was folding shirts on a table behind us and I could hear him singing, he was singing to himself but he sounded pretty good and as we walked out he gave us one last farewell and I thanked him. I sooo wanted to give him my number, and Hope said he was definitely flirting with me /lost cause. I just have never felt so disappointed about missing an opportunity with a guy....I don't know... I can't think of anything else.....I miss people, I wish I wasn't completely alone tonight (absolutely no one is online, it's eerie) post comment

[04 Jan 2010|12:24pm] luridlysteph14 I'm on the train home and these two little girls are sitting next to me, telling their mother that they know, off by heart, all the lines from Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. And then she starts to say, 'I Severus Snape hereby give the Slytherin Quidditch....' and I just melted. I melted, whipped out my phone, giggled and smiled behind my hair, and now they're talking about Goblet of Fire. It's just too precious for words! Posted via LiveJournal.app. 5 comments|post comment

To the anonymous gifter [03 Jan 2010|12:13pm] lunafish [ mood | busy ] Thank you for the twinkly lights at Christmas! Although I didn't have a chance to respond earlier, you really made my day! :-D post comment

[03 Jan 2010|09:26pm] luridlysteph14 This is just a post to let you know four things: 1) On 23rd December I spilt a tub of yoghurt on my ready to post Christmas cards. Needless to say, I'm rewriting those unfortunate reindeer cards & you'll get them mid-January. How's that for a new years resolution? 2) I am, in fact, in Newcastle which is north up the coast from Sydney. I love that it's also so close to Cardiff, and when I was on the train up here a lot of the station platforms had grass on them. 3) I still have net access, thank you iPhone, but for the next week I'm reading, doing yoga, sit ups and push ups (because there's a challenge at my gym when I get back) and playing the Sims, which I haven't done in months. When I hung out with Jason he seemed surprised I hadn't read a book properly since January this year (ah, I need to fix up elizabethflew). I've finished eat pray love and am now reading julie & julia: my year of cooking dangerously, because the movie was so delicious. 4) I'm opening up joining access on elizabethflew. I didn't intend for other people to post, but I realised that there's no harm in letting people join to show support as well a watching. I love that blog. I blog in my head about things that never make it to the site. I have tens of entries that I'm still editing, not to mention some of the 30 days of sharing. So, to wrap this up, add elizabethflew to your friends pages, and if I could ask a teensy favour when everything's shiny and I'm ready to start promoting it properly, let me know if you've got a community of your own I can affiliate with and direct people to? Music comms, fanfiction, photography, or blogging, I'd love to start threading my web. Elizabethflew, the community that loves you! I'll hopefully have a post for you at New Years, but if I don't see you then, happy new year! Posted via LiveJournal.app. 1 comment|post comment

[24 Dec 2009|01:05am] luridlysteph14 So, I tried green tonight: ( Grun ) Ah, I'll smile tomorrow. Make up is so annoying. I'll try harder tomorrow, seeing as it's Christmas :) Posted via LiveJournal.app. 2 comments|post comment

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